for a long-time best friend, joshua estero

Goodbye My Friend
Karla Bonoff

Oh we never know where life will take us
We know it's just a ride on the wheel
And we never know when death will shake us
And we wonder how it will feel

So goodbye my friend
I know I'll never see you again
But the time together through all the years
Will take away these tears
It's okay now
Goodbye my friend

I'd see a lot of things that made me crazy
And I guess I held on to you
You could've run away and left, well maybe
But it wasn't time and we both knew

So goodbye my friend
I know I'll never see you again
But the love you gave me through all the years
Will take away my tears
I'm okay now
Goodbye my friend

A life so fragile, a love so pure
We can't hold on but we try
We watch how quickly it disappears
And we'll never know why
But I'm okay now
Goodbye my friend

You can go now
Goodbye my friend

missin' the sky

i looked at the sky last night, and i tried to look for you in the depths of the clouds, in the wind that moved them, in the birds that even in the darkest of the night you could see their wings conquering the altitudes i could never reach. i tried to look for you in the sky that night, but you weren't there anymore. the sky was just the sky again, that even the brightness of the moon, which its glow at first did not move me, failed to put a smile on my face. i used to smile at that. or maybe now, the lips tasted nothing but salty tears giving it its frown.

i looked at the sky last night, and realized after one year, six months, and one day had passed, i still miss you. and always have.

salts on my lips again.