Sunday, December 28, 2008

post-merry christmas greeting

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Wicked. That's all I can say about this when I watched it on TFC. This segment practically drove me nuts.

Hope you all had a great Christmas! I, on the other hand, forgot to wake myself up at midnight and woke up 6 a.m. the next day. First time ever. So, no Noche Buena for me this year. One of my New Year resolutions: Remember to set the alarm. ;)

Three more days and it's 2009!

Goin Bulilit - Abakada ng Pasko

Sunday, December 14, 2008

for a long-time best friend, joshua estero

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Goodbye My Friend
Karla Bonoff

Oh we never know where life will take us
We know it's just a ride on the wheel
And we never know when death will shake us
And we wonder how it will feel

So goodbye my friend
I know I'll never see you again
But the time together through all the years
Will take away these tears
It's okay now
Goodbye my friend

I'd see a lot of things that made me crazy
And I guess I held on to you
You could've run away and left, well maybe
But it wasn't time and we both knew

So goodbye my friend
I know I'll never see you again
But the love you gave me through all the years
Will take away my tears
I'm okay now
Goodbye my friend

A life so fragile, a love so pure
We can't hold on but we try
We watch how quickly it disappears
And we'll never know why
But I'm okay now

Goodbye my friend

You can go now
Goodbye my friend

Sunday, November 30, 2008

support filipino cg artist ron sapinoso

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I received an e-mail message from Ron Sapinoso, a CG artist who, I believe, could potentially bring great pride to the Filipinos by his marvelous works in the animation industry.

Please click on the link to support our "kababayan." Artists like Ron is a proof that we, Filipinos, are truly talented and the possibilities of making the world aware of such potential are endless.

I have embedded the video below for everyone's convenience. Leave a nice comment on his page and give his video a high rating. His work is really worth it.

Link: http://www.aniboom.com/video/284194/connect-ed/



Also, visit Aniboom.com to view his profile and watch other 3d movies this great Filipino CG artist has made.

(or click on this link: http://www.aniboom.com/boomzones/ronsapinoso)

Cmon, watch the video and click on the links above and become an advocate for the great Filipino talent!

Monday, November 24, 2008

lessons i have forgotten

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Thanks a lot for your blog post, Fer. Below is an excerpt from her post on
October 28, 2008. Makabagbag-damdamin.

Pero nalaman kong hindi pala ganun. Minsan, when you have given all the things that you can give them, dun mo lang mare-realize na parang may kulang. Pagkatapos mong pagsilbihan lahat ng tao sa paligid mo, pagkatapos mo silang pasayahin, you’ll realize na may isang tao ka palang nakalimutang pasayahin — ang sarili mo.

Nalaman ko na you don’t always have to depend on other people. Kasi it’s like a gamble when you depend your happiness on them. Pwede nilang ibigay yun, pwede ring hindi. Nakahanda ka ba kung sakaling hindi? Somewhere along the way, you’ll realize that they will be needing other people aside from you to satisfy their needs. At ikaw, kapag wala ka nang ibang inasahan kundi sila lang, maiiwan ka. And eventually, you’ll feel like a loner.

Happiness, I guess, is a state of mind. It can be obtained not from other people, but from your own self. The first thing is for you to love yourself. Because you can never expect other people to do that for you. One of the greatest lessons that I’ve learned from life is this: learn how to value yourself, coz if you don’t, no one will.

Though we have people around us who always tell us that they love and value us, at some point, they will fail to let them feel that. If that happens, the only thing that will remain to us is the love that we have for ourselves.

Para maging masaya ka, umasa ka lang sa sarili mo. Kasi ipagkait man sayo yan ng buong mundo, kapag meron ka nyan sa puso mo, hinding-hindi yan maaalis ng kahit sino. I know I don’t love myself that much. But I know that life is a process. I know it’s not that easy, but I know I can always start. =)

~ by vingt-huit on October 28, 2008.

I learned from our professor in our journalism class when he quoted the great Walter Cronkite (I think), "History doesn't repeat itself. It rhymes." Indeed, Professor Sillcock, and people have the tendency to travel along the same stream or current or flow of mistakes they did in the past.

And it's one of those lessons I had a strong hold of, before you came. Now I've forgotten them altogether, but I will learn them again. I just hope I could start soon before the rhyme catches up to me again.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

worst Lss so far

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I was watching the news and they had this feature story about a house made out of cookies and a familiar song was playing on the background. Ever since then the song is stuck on my head and you could just imagine how I need to get it out. This LSS is really killing me. Ghad. So, why not share it with everyone else? Maybe that will give me some relief. (Or maybe this song will get stuck in your heads as well and you'll join me in my misery. Haha.)

Sunday, November 09, 2008

slip of the tongue

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I wasn't aware of this Youtube video till I stumbled upon it looking for something. Maybe everyone had seen it except for me.

This is a slick video on a poem written and performed by Adriel Luis entitled, "Slip of the Tongue." It tackles race and ethnicity. If you haven't seen it, see the video below and forward the link to your friends. It's worth seeing.



Saturday, November 08, 2008

to the tune of "no air"

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When I saw this segment in ASAP '08 two weeks ago, I can't help but remember a particular dance in an episode of "So You Think You Can Dance."

I am really not an avid fan of "So You Think..." and at first I even thought that it was just a simple American Idol-style contest that you have dancing instead of singing in the center of it all. You will gather up all of these amateur dancers and they'll dance and you'll vote them to stay and whoever ends up the last wins. However, when I saw the semi-finals show I was just amazed at the choreography (not all of them, but most are truly exquisite especially the contemporary pieces) as well as the contestants. I don't know if it's just the frustrated dancer inside me who's talking here (Yes, I am a frustrated dancer and I would like to take dancing classes someday to shut it up :p). The dancers in this contest really can dance, and they can knock everyone out.

Anyway, so again I saw this segment in ASAP '08 featuring Sarah Geronimo and Rayver Cruz (Filipino celebrities), which made me want to look up for that video again from the "So You Think..." show. Let's see, who do you think made a better dance interpretation of the song "No Air?" Is it Sarah/Rayver or Katee/Joshua?

**Okay, I would like to think that they are just dead even in the choreography since Sarah and Rayver are not really full-pledged dancers, but of course there's no doubt they can dance very well. Katee and Joshua, on the other hand, well, you'll just have to watch the video and see what they are capable of.

Sarah and Rayver (ASAP '08)



Katee and Joshua (So You Think You Can Dance?)


Friday, November 07, 2008

yes we can

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If elections were like TV shows analyzing their episodes with the highest rating, I bet this particular election is in the top 3.

I wasn't able to vote during this election since I am not allowed to (I'll get deported if I did! Haha!). And I was kinda devastated since this is the kind of election where if I had the chance to vote, I know that I am not merely voting the "least likely candidate to ruin everyone" unlike the past years.

Yes we can. And when we say it, we must mean it but most importantly, do something about it.


Wednesday, October 29, 2008

power mish-nap

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I usually take "power naps" after I get home from school and work. It usually lasts for an hour or two then I get up and do my assignments. I usually sleep at around 12 or 12:30 in the morning, getting four to five hours of sleep everyday. I work 38-plus hours per week in addition to seven to eight hours of school, not including time spent on assignments. This has been my routine since August when Fall semester started, and though I still struggle and it's been stressing me out big time to do full-time work and go to school part-time taking three to four subjects, I'm just glad I'm back in college. Hope I could have it the other way though, full-time school part-time work, pero hindi pala biro ang magpaaral ng sarili mo hehe. Plus bills, bills, bills.

Well, it's been a stagnant two years and it's time to move forward. Not even the recession in America could stop me.

Anyway, I was taking one of these power naps awhile ago so I got into bed by 7 p.m. and set my alarm for 8 o'clock. But as everyone knows, you always have that option to "snooze." However, I don't know which part of my brain-hand coordination doesn't get it but I usually end up pushing that button for completely shutting off the alarm.

Unknowingly, that's what I did just tonight like every other night (and morning as well).

I got up, got my cell phone, looked at the clock and saw that it was 10 before 9. However, when I woke up, I was in that mindset that it was time for me to go to work.

And I get up to go to work at 5 a.m. (leaving the house by 6:20-ish). Seeing that it's 9 o'clock on my phone, well, you could just imagine how I would have reacted.

I kind of panicked and kept on telling myself, "Damn, this is not happening today." I've never been totally late to work and I know how bad this is gonna look on my record.

But I guess it did not dawn on me that it was really dark outside, but hey in Arizona, with all the dust storms, it could be 12 in the afternoon and really dark. And since I sleep with all lights off, it's kind of hard to digest what time it really is (Plus the fact that I do not have wall clock in my room. Better put on things-to-buy list: Buy a wall clock).

Anyway, to make the long story short: I got up, I panicked, I hurried to go to the bathroom to take a shower but I decided to check out what time it really is and to see my father on the room kind of gave me a relief. Yep, it is 9 o'clock, in the evening.

After I got my mind and senses back on track, I turned my laptop on and worked on my reaction paper due for Thursday afternoon.

Kaya ang advice ko, get enough sleep. Now I understand how people who suffer from sleep depravation could end up getting hit by a car while crossing the street (What?).

At tulad ng sabi ni Bob Ong, matulog kayong mga bata pag hapon. Pag nagkatrabaho na kayo (o gaya ng sabi ng Ong, pag natuto kayong umibig), magsisisi kayo kung bakit mas pinili ninyong manood ng Power Rangers kaysa humilata sa kama ng hapong iyon.

Monday, October 27, 2008

joke for the night

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I was watching yet another rerun of Everybody Loves Raymond, which is one of the best TV comedy shows ever, and Frank (Ray's dad) said this joke to Raymond that got me shaking my head for as long as I could.

Frank: Don't you know that Mark Twain had a son? Do you know what they called him?

Ray: (looks at Frank waiting for the answer)

Frank: They called him Choo Choo.

Choo Choo Twain!! Hahahaha.

*toinks*

Let's just hope I won't suffer from an LJK - Last Joke Syndrome.

i hope so

Old song. Same emotions. Same memories coming back to haunt you all over again. And every day you hope that it'll be the day you'll just finally snap out of it. "It'll all get better in time."

I hope so.

Try again tomorrow. *sigh*


Better In Time
Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Saturday, October 25, 2008

spam

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agosto 21, 2008

antagal-tagal kong nagtiis at naghintay na hindi basahin ang message mo sakin.

and it turned out, after months of anticipation, spam lang pala siya.

now i have proven, time will make you realize everything you have to even if you're not ready yet.

time forces you to heal and catches you at your weakest moment.

thank you, time. now i know.

our love was just a spam after all. it simply sat there. it was meant to be deleted.

just like what i did to your message.

(boohoo. hehe.)

- isa sa mga bagay na tina-type ko sa notepad kapag feel ko lang magjot-down ng short ideas for stories. minsan din may mga bagay sa buhay ko na pinaghuhugutan. bahala ka na mamili kung alin sa dalawa ang angkop para dito.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

listen to adele

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I heard this song when I watched SNL's episode featuring an appearance by Vice Presidential Nominee Sarah Palin.

Musical guest Adele looked cutesy on stage after every song she belted out in SNL. It was funny and just plain cute. She looked so serious when she sings but after it she seemed like this shy girl who just finished a talent portion in a school program.

Anyway, her song "Chasing Pavements" has a very exquisite, sophisticated, melancholy, drowning tone to it. It's like the kind of song you want to play while hanging out in a cafe late in the afternoon waiting for a "lover" or some sort.

Just a thought, I think at the end one should just give up instead of chasing pavements. Because the chase would always leave you nowhere. Definitely.

Just a thought.


Chasing Pavements
Adele

I've made up my mind
Don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right
Don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love but

If I tell the world
I'll never say enough
Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do
If I'm in love with you

Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I'd build myself up
And fly around in circles
Waiting as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it

Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Saturday, October 18, 2008

checklist: revisited

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I had this post back in June 2006 where I had a checklist of the things I wanna do in my life. I saw the post again as I was reviewing the previous posts in this blog and thought maybe I should do an update on it. Surprisingly, I've got a lot of things to cross off on my checklist, which is kinda uplifting. I also revised some of my "provisions" since I've had a change of perspective about them. Plus some of them are kinda subjective and there is really no measurement of accomplishment. I'd rather stick to the tangible ones. I guess I should spend more of my free time accomplishing this checklist rather than "emo-ing." :p

Click here for the original checklist.

CHECKLIST

1. Build a dog pound so that all of the stray dogs in our neighborhood will be taken care of. (A promise I made when I was like seven. Yah, kinda childish. I just remembered about it while I was walking home and saw a dog without its owner. The human brain is a real wonder. The memory of it just suddenly hit me.)

2. Ride a rollercoaster (Yes, I haven't rode in one. The closest thing I could get was to a caterpillar ride back in my elementary days. Coz I get dizzy and might end up throwing up. Well, how would I know if I don't get to try it right?)

3. Be someone that my parents I myself is going to be proud of. There is no one else who could be more prouder of you than you.

4. Read all of the books that I bought or received from people (I'm starting on this one and have read three or four books while staying here in AZ. I have the time now so it's all good) Note to self: Make a list of books read in the past and will read in the future.

5. Ride on a cruise ship.

6. Have one wild ride on a hot air balloon. (Okay, drop the wild thing)

7. Be able to go to New York, Paris, Antartica, and Japan - Go to as many countries as possible, having these three on the top of the list.

8. Learn how to drive a car. YEY!

9. And in connection to number 8, buy my own car. (I'm thinking of either a Mustang or Convertible. And if only I have the money, maybe a Ferrari...and an armored van. Seriously. I love that "car"). I bought my own car two days before my 22nd birthday, a 2008 black Mazda 3. I still have five years to go to pay for it, but it's all worth it.

10. Be published in a book.

11. Live a dream job - in context, be a successful writer, vet (wow, I can't believe I actually mentioned this), or become one of the people behind the Oprah show. Yah, very rewarding. (There still more...just can't think of 'em right now)

12. Learn to speak in Spanish, Japanese, French, and maybe Latin (seems like my language classes in College)

13. Be inside an igloo and sleep there overnight (that's why I'd like to go to Antartica hehe)
14. Join in a Go-Kart Racing.

15. Treat my closest friends to a trip somewhere for a vacation (Coz the supreme being knows how much I love my true, closest friends. They're half my life)

16. Treat my closest cousins to a trip, too. (To reminisce the good old days we had and to catch up with each other)

17. Of course, treat my parents, my brother, and my Tita Ofel to a trip somewhere too (Or perhaps just anything that I know they would enjoy and make them happy. They're the other half of my life, and it took 20 years for me to realize and admit that)

18. Reward the people who were good to me, good to other people, and those who were never hypocrites. As well as punish those who are hypos. Yes, revenge is sweet.

19. Go to a concert of Fall Out Boy (and probably take a picture, or even meet them. I just love this band's music)

20. Help my cousin(s) to finish their studies.

21. Donate $240.00 to the Operation Smile Organization (Yes, it only takes $240.00 to give one child the smile that he or she deserves. That's like a week of my salary. I'm starting to set aside money for this, day by day. It doesn't hurt to give back. I hope you'll do too)

22. Go back to Elbi. (UP Los Banos) I have accomplished this in 2007, though I will never grow tires of going back to Elbi. It will always be my surreal home.

23. Attend my highschool reunion a different person, in a good way. Coz my highschool life is pretty much a big regret (except for the people I met during that time. Well, some of them)

24. Buy my own house with great interior deco. Or if I get richer, have a library, a ZEN garden, and a swimming pool/jacuzzi in it. But that's just if I get lucky. I've gotten tired of swimming pools/jacuzzis; hot tubs will do the job for me.

25. Have a boyfriend (Now this is complicated. Actually, I'm not sure if I actually "need" one, if there's gonna be. I'm selfish of my time. So I guess no guy's up for that. Just included it here in case I change my mind. Just for fun :p). I have decided that this does not deserve a place in the checklist. It seems childish to me now. :)

26. Have an Organ Donor card Technically, I haven't printed out my card yet but I have registered myself to be an organ donor. It's just weird though, coz I just realized I am now an organ donor here in Arizona plus I have an organ donor card in my wallet from the Philippines. Now there's a conflict right there.

27. "Balikan si Cham-Cham," an LTS-2 student who made it clear to me how children need the attention and education they deserve to realize their full potential. A kid who made me see how lucky I am to get the education my parents worked hard for. Coz it really does pay back.

28. Be at TRL while Lindsay Lohan is hosting or the guest there hahaha. Okay, we could remove the LL part. Just wanna know the feeling of being on the set of a TV show. Such a thrill.

29. Die young (hmmm...morbid) I am still looking forward to this one but I think it is too subjective and does not, again, deserve a place on the list.

30. Meet Genoveva Edroza Matute (Before it's too late. Or is it already?)

31. Buy a laptop/notebook My first ever investment of my hard-earned money before the car. Though my laptop's battery only last for an hour or so, and though I am still saving up to buy a new longer-lasting battery, I love my HP laptop. I'M A PC! Haha.

32. Organize my CDs, VCDs, and DVDs MP3 and video files in my laptop. I just realized I really don't have that much CDs/VCDs/DVDs so there is really nothing to organize. Let me rephrase it instead.

33. Buy my own iPod video Touch (haha, i wish) An iPod Touch 32 GB just costs $400 in Costco. Hmm... Let's see on Thanksgiving or Christmas.

34. Not be a spendthrift most of the time (Now, this is hard) Subjective!!!!!!!!!

35. Attend my closest friends' graduation by March of next year This has been long over and I was not able to attend. Some of them have very exclusive graduation ceremonies, while the UP Los Banos ceremony was held a month after I left the Philippines (had a three-month vacation in 2007).

36. Buy the DVD collections of my favorite tv series (I just love watching them over and over again). Waste of money.

37. Do a road trip with my brother

38. Do a "great" film with, or for FC

39. Create our own book launch with my LAYB peeps (Yes guys, our own book, because I believe in what we can do if we just have the time, the money, and our whole heart plunged into it. It's not that far from happening.)

40. Create my will and testament before I die (Well, actually I don't know if a Will and Testament really applies to me since I don't have any large assets to share with anybody, but there are some small yet valuable things for me that I want someone to have. It's my way of letting them know how much they meant to me. And at least before I die, I would finally speak up about what I really felt. It's like a hit-and-run thing. Whatever they'd say about it, I don't care anymore since well, I'm dead haha. And it's much better to die prepared hehe.)

41. Join the Peace Corps. NEW!

42. Do mass amounts of rewarding volunteer work. When I did volunteer work last May for a breast cancer walkathon, just out of curiosity and since I just wanted to do something different, it sparked an idea for me to be more involved in volunteering. I have been slacking off with this one lately due to school and work, but once I have time on my hands again, I'll get back on track. NEW!


43. Complete half of the things to do in the book, "101 Things to Do Before You Die." -> So I guess this kind of adds 51 more items on this checklist. ;)


Saturday, September 20, 2008

who i want to meet - not in an 'eb' sense

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Just a random, spur-of-the-moment list of people I want to meet (in no particular order):

  1. God/Supreme Being
  2. Genoveva Edroza-Matute
  3. Mitch Albom
  4. Nicholas Sparks
  5. Walter Cronkite
  6. Nellie Bly
  7. SNL Cast
  8. One Tree Hill Cast
  9. Fall Out Boy
  10. The Today Show Cast
  11. Oprah
  12. Cheche Lazaro
  13. Kara David
  14. Maki Pulido (for the second time around para maitanong ko sa kanya lahat ng gusto kong itanong dati)
  15. My Ninang who died of cancer years ago
  16. Myself (if possible)
  17. Yung taong magtatama ng lahat ng mali sa buhay ko.

Friday, September 19, 2008

i just can't

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It is rare that you find a song with lyrics that completely mirror everything you want to say.

Yah, everything you want to say but you just can't. And the loneliness is just too palpable to bear.

Damn. Thanks for the wonderful song, Bread.

I Can't Find The Words To Say Goodbye
Bread


Can't say I don't love her
Still I can't pretend
That my heart is torn just knowing that I'm losing my bestfriend
If it's easier said and done
Then someone tell me why
Though I try,
I can't find the words to say goodbye

I could tell her that I'm sorry
Hope she'll understand
She will have to do with someone else
All that we have planned
I'd rather her hear the truth
Than hurt her with a lie
So I tried,
But I can't find the words to say goodbye

Now I know
I have to go
There's no other way
But goodbye is not what I can bring myself to say...

If I told her 'see you later'
Then I might be wrong
'Cause this voice inside is driving me
To find where I belong
I know I must leave her now but everytime I try,
Don't know why,
But I can't find the words to say goodbye...
Don't know why,
I can't find the words to say goodbye....

Sunday, September 14, 2008

charice - need i say more

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I had no idea that Charice Pempengco was guesting on Oprah the second time around. And yes, I get amazed by her performances and uplifts the "Filipina" in me. She is like the Manny Pacquiao of the Philippine music industry. She definitely reached great lengths in her career, and with me still adjusting to a life in a foreign country, such feats of Filipinos like Charice make the struggle less difficult.

Mahirap ang buhay sa Amerika, yun lang ang masasabi ko. At umaasa akong giginhawa din ito balang araw, lalo na para sa parents ko na kung tutuusin ay dapat ako na ang sumusuporta sa kanila ngayon. Oh well.

Anyway, back to Ms. Pempengco. I mentioned to a friend at work if she saw the TV guesting of this great kid from the Philippines (referring to Charice's first guesting on Oprah) on her episode on the World's Most Talented Kids. She (my friend) made a brief mention of how Charice was going to be on the show again though she wasn't aware when or if it was a fact. I immediately dismissed the idea since I never saw any promotion for it on TV, both local and on TFC. I just shrugged and forgot about it. It didn't occur to me I never really had a TV life since school started, which I will be making a post on in the following days.

So I was surprised when I saw her video on YouTube where a whole episode was dedicated to her. I immediately told my parents about it, not in a way like I am a loca fan or something, since they love watching Charice sing as well.

I guess I'll just have to do a quick post about Charice's guesting on Oprah as well as a clip from YouTube, the part where she sang "My Heart Will Go On." I knew I have a lot of other posts I would like to do (I actually made post-its to remind me about what I will write), but I think that this is a way for me to show my patriotism to my country (ngek).

Hehe. Pero hindi, seryoso naman ako dun. Kahit sa maliit na paraan lang ng pagpost ko tungkol sa isa sa mga pride ng Pilipinas, kahit naman sana papaano eh maniwala tayo na may "edge" ang mga Pilipino sa international industry. The world is a market for everyone, and there is no harm in believing that you could be a part of that "everyone."

Ngek ulit. Wala lang. Gusto ko lang ma-uplift ang spirit ko pati ng taong magbabasa ng post na ito.

Just like the impact of a young singer to Filipinos who struggle to make it every single day.

Damn. I miss home.

Enjoy Charice Pempengco's performance! May she make you want to buy a t-shirt with a print saying, "Proud to be Pinoy!" ;)

Video: Charice Pempengco guesting on Oprah 09.09.08 // courtesy of YouTube



Monday, September 01, 2008

up at 100 years

Monday, September 01, 2008 0

I did not graduate from the University of the Philippines. I wished I have, but personal choices must be done and I had to choose to continue my studies in the U.S. Or at least I try to. :) Anyway, even though I am now starting my new college life at Arizona State University, UP would be always be in my heart, especially UP Los Banos, because as they say, there is nothing like college life in UP. And if I was given a chance to do it all over again, walk in the muddy Freedom Park, sit on the steaming stairs of the Humanities, not only because of the heat but of the students' voices heard on those steps, even spend the wee hours of the morning walking along Grove; I would do UP all over again, and wherever I go, I will, and always be a UPian, ang nananatiling iskolar ng bayan.

Let me share with you an e-mail I got weeks ago. This article really hit home, and made me more proud than ever about the university who cradled the boldness in me.

Happy centennial to University of the Philippines! UP Fight!

The Value of THE UP Experience
First published 6 June 2008
The Manila Standard Today
INTEGRATIONS
Maya Baltazar Herrera
Voyage

There are no children here.

This week, I went to a meeting at the UP School of Economics and I came away with renewed belief in the value of the UP experience.

If you speak to anyone from UP – student, professor, alumnus - you will get no Latin slogans or apologies about how the school teaches values in spite of its outward materialism.

This is not a student population that thinks about basketball games or memorizes school songs.

This is not a school that chooses one statement to drill into the minds of its students.

This is not, of course, to say that UP does not care about values.

It is that UP, in its own inimitable way, believes that values cannot be force-fed.

The statue of the naked man that guards the entrance to the campus in Diliman best represents UP's approach to all education and the respect for students that is the center of its educational philosophy.

All who come to this university, regardless of origin, bring themselves naked, carrying nothing but their thirst; like the proverbial empty teacup, making an offering of self, waiting to be filled.

Adults

For many students from private schools, the first lesson that is learned here is that this is a school for adult education.

There are no children here, and that is why no parents are allowed either at freshman orientation or during enlistment.

The spirit of the oblation lies not in a mother or a father offering up his child to the world, it is that of the newly adult, freely offering of his self.

I remember quite vividly that moment that drove home how different the UP education continues to be. It was my daughter's first semester in university and she had invited a group of her high school friends to our house. One of them asked a classmate whether she had gotten her parents permission form approved for that weekend's outreach activity. From the UP population around the table came the mock horrified responses of: "Permission? " and "Outreach?"

I thought about it and realized that all of these students were, in fact, legally adults. I thought it interesting that only the UP students appeared to appreciate this fact.

Even more interesting was the "outreach" comment. I think back to my own university years and the last three years that my daughter has been in UP and am certain there is no lack of civic activity. There are medical missions, house building projects, tree planting, community work and barrio work and so on. I realize now that the reaction was not to the activity as much as it was to the use of the word.

One of the most important differences of the UP campus from all the other campuses my children considered going to is that this campus has no walls. Many parents fear this. They are afraid their precious children will not be protected from the ills of society in a campus that is so open to the rest of the world.

But UP is open to the world in more ways than just not having the physical walls.

Community

Being in UP means much more than being a student. This campus is enmeshed in a community.

This community is made up not only of the transient population of students who go home each night. It includes the many, many students who lay their heads on dorm pillows each night, enduring time away from families in the firm belief that this campus will bring them closer to their dreams.

This community includes the families of faculty and employees who live on campus. It also includes the many people who work not for the University, but nevertheless work on campus.

This community includes the lady who remembers the brand of cigarette you smoke and automatically hands it to you in the morning. It includes the gentleman who remembers you like pepper on your egg sandwich or the one who knows you will dip your fish balls into two of his sauces, who patiently waits for you to eat your three sticks before being paid. It includes the woman who saw all her children through college by selling peanuts every day on campus.

To a UP student, the daily heartbeat of the school is never far away from the realities of the country. The word outreach suggests that civic activity is something outside of the normal, something you do once in a while. It must be immensely difficult to think of community as a thing apart when your campus experience brings you face to face with all of the world's realities every day.

Character

All of this probably explains that unmistakable sense of self that you will find from students who come from this campus.

Here is a campus where all have the same opportunities to learn. But also,here is a campus that will give all the same opportunities to fail. There are no guidance counselors who will chase after you because you have been skipping classes. The attitude this university takes is that you must take the initiative – for learning, for seeking help, for realizing you need help.

That is not to say that no help exists. But it is help that is not forced upon you.

This is a university rich in both introspection and conversation. On this campus, the student is constantly exposed to people – faculty, administrators, community members, other students – who care deeply and passionately about the world.

The conversations are almost never purely cerebral. A single graph can provoke comments about government policy and its effects on people.

As a result, UP is home to a student population that looks at the world and cares. It is easy to see pictures of protesting students and dismiss it as radicalism. But there are few campuses in this country where students go beyond a passing curiosity about what is happening in the world beyond their own lives. There are even fewer universities where students not only care but also actually believe they have a responsibility to make a difference – not in some hazy future – today. And that, I believe, is what truly forges character. Character is not molded by speeches or long classes in ethics or theology. Character grows from within. It begins by being handed the keys to your own self and being told you are in charge; you now have power over yourself and your own actions – and with that power, you take on responsibilities.

Each student in this university goes through his own unique voyage of discovery. On his voyage, as he decides what he cares about, what he will fight for and what he will sacrifice, he crafts his own personal values. That is what education is truly about.

Maligayang Sentenaryo sa mga Iskolar ng, AT PARA SA, Bayan!!!

Thursday, August 28, 2008

missin' the sky

Thursday, August 28, 2008 0
i looked at the sky last night, and i tried to look for you in the depths of the clouds, in the wind that moved them, in the birds that even in the darkest of the night you could see their wings conquering the altitudes i could never reach. i tried to look for you in the sky that night, but you weren't there anymore. the sky was just the sky again, that even the brightness of the moon, which its glow at first did not move me, failed to put a smile on my face. i used to smile at that. or maybe now, the lips tasted nothing but salty tears giving it its frown.

i looked at the sky last night, and realized after one year, six months, and one day had passed, i still miss you. and always have.

salts on my lips again.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

the nostalgic vaporub

Saturday, August 23, 2008 0
I was sitting at my desk doing the monotonous everyday work: typing, listening, letting my right foot press on the pedal while the lefty rests, as usual, permitting the varicose veins mapping on my legs, which by the way I despise and prohibit me to wear shorty shorts, seep in on the casual atmosphere of the work area. Out of that suffocation, my nose favored a familiar smell I have not scented for a very long time. It was like the smell of rain, the aroma that I always loved no matter how pungent it may be. It always reminded me of the typhoon I learned to grow up with and missed since the desert sun never served me any consolation like it did. It was the smell of mixed saltwater, grass, soil, earth. It had the hint of mint which made its presence stronger than it should be. Most of all, that smell reminded me of home. And it made me feel better, while sitting at that same chair every single day, while letting my fingers fly through every letter in the keyboard, while the tired eyes soar through the prints appearing on the screen; that familiar scent made me feel better for it meant home is never far away than it used to be.

It served for me, and me alone, that it may be a fact every Filipino child grew up knowing and using this immediate remedy for colds. It may have been a part of the culture of nurturing moms everywhere. Or maybe it was popularized by that commercial of a mother running to the side of an ailing child while rubbing his back with the gooey mint gel. I really don't know for sure. But my mother, which I consider as one of those nurturing moms even if I spent most of my tainted years barking at her nuisance, always reminded me of rubbing that spot under my nose with the viscous substance, especially when rains are about to pour down hard. Maybe that is why it reminded me of rain. Because I never had the chance to smell true rain. My nose hairs were blocked by that eucalyptus fragrance and I associated it with the downpour.

I have to admit it made me feel good even if I didn't know what it was made of. The scientific makeup of normal things I use every single day never bothered me. The sight of that small, blue plastic container with a green lid marked with its famous insignia was enough explanation for me to consider it as one of the marvels man has ever created. Or maybe not that of a genius, but close enough.

Nostalgia, on a side note a word i used to associate with natalie imbruglia for a reason i still don't know why - maybe because they almost rhyme - must be a word that embodies who i am. I enjoy nostalgia, there is no better way of a "pastime" or to even "past the time" by reliving the past. But i take a lot of caution of getting this hobby or personality or trait get to me. Because most of the time the past can drown you, make you addicted, or get you drunk in melancholy memories that prevents you from facing the present, which is basically what you just have. The past is a good company when you look back at happy memories. The sad ones are the true bitch. And i am certainly not the type who gets uplifted by bad memories, reverse psychology if one should say. Memories are like black is black and white is white. There are no gray areas.

I hope that combining these two elements that are dear to me will give more meaning in resuscitating this blog once again. It has been more than a year, almost two maybe, that the planet of the monkeys' (my previous blog, planet of the aps) voice had been heard. Now that planet has exploded, similar to the intensity of the big bang theory, to give life to a new earth, or maybe in a smaller sense, just a new me (quips).

I hope that my hopes for this blog will finally flourish like the clearing of my breathflow whenever I inhale the scent of that vaporub.

I hope that my hopes for this blog will nurture nostalgia but not only stay there, move forward and create new memories to be nostalgic about.

I have finally resuscitated my blog. And it's getting harder and harder to breath for me (I just had to put that in, I'm having an Lss - Last Song Syndrome - of Maroon 5's Harder to Breathe).

Enjoy.